>>24594223
Thanks anon. My dad killed himself a few years ago and ever since I've just felt like life is fake, or not real or something. I drank for a long time, and smoked weed. Eventually had to give all that up. I know logically I should be grateful for the life I do have, but I have no family and a job I hate. I go outside a decent amount but not like I used to. I try to get sun. My health is garbage. I wanted cures so bad. I'll go outside today when I get home and try to pray. I used to go to church but don't anymore. I feel like everywhere I look its just corruption. I think a new job would probably change my whole outlook on life. I'm desperate.