I don't need prison, I need HELP
I'm mentally fucked up and your treatment of a mentally fucked-up individual is cruel and unusual. This whole thing you've done to me since 2023 iss cruel and unusual. It's fucked me out of my mind
And posting this will do me NO FUCKING GOOD. There's NEVER help, it's ALL fear and threats
"Getting my nervous system under control" is a huge part of the mess I'm in. I'm a former alcoholic. Panick attacks from Q-mandated missions cause me to drink again on occasion and my former drinking days messed up my feet pretty bad, but still able to walk. These recent drinking bouts have made it really hard to be on my feet more than 15 minutes. And I have an ultimatum to either paint houses or go to prison. I SOOO don't want to go to prison but at least I wouldn't have to be on my feet all day there. I literally don't see how I can do what I'm being ordered to do… and I'd love some MEDICAL ANXIETY OPTION but I'm 99% sure I'm not allowed to use any of those. I'm literally considering fleeing the state today but that's insane because I can't outrun God/Q. I can't commit suicide (thoughts that plague me daily) because I know I'd be in hell. Everything is just fucked… shouldn't be, but is. I wish I were the person Q thought I was.
If I can survive til I get one
Homo or just being a comedic ass?
what AM i allowed to do that feels good?
I swear coffee might not seem like much, but being forced to give it up has felt like a final nail in the coffin