Started drinking straight whiskey at ten. Full blown alkie at 18. Totaled 29 cars in 10 years. Raging alcoholic for forty years and was up to a fifth of straight whiskey with beer chasers every night. Court ordered treatment, AA meetings, In House treatment, drank until I walked in the door.
Lost two houses, a wife and been homeless more times than I care to admit to myself. Found a good woman, kept drinking until I almost lost heer too. Sat down after an epic 3 day binge and had a chat with myself about what was more important. Set the bottle down and walked away from it six years ago.
You won't quit until you want to bad enough. When you do you won't need any crutches. Just walk away from it. It ain't easy, I'm not gonna lie to you but it boils down to being able to look yourself in the eyes every morning knowing that whatever happens that day is going to be 1,00 times better than where you were before at it's best.
Good luck.