It's OK ANON. WRWY. You are me 3 months ago. Take some time away, go to the woods or the beach, forget all this shit for a while. Unplug from any and all media. THEN, come back, catch up, and you'll feel like you're gaining strength every day (because you are). I feel like my angel wings are starting to bud after two weeks at the beach…
Good for you, Anon. I've never been to the desert (I'm an ocean man), but that should do nicely. Keep your eyes peeled for a nice rock - maybe one with an interesting fossil or a hole in it. Take it as a good sign if you do, and keep the rock if it calls to you. Or not..