>>3522689 (LB)

I have very few things that makes me happy, The non human characters have taken everything that made me happy about life. I'm in survival mode, trying to figure out if I'll have the chance to at least know some truth before my time is up. This place is doomed, I used to want great things for our kind and now looking around all I see is darkness.

The only light I see is Trump with his shinning unscratchable armor marked with a big Q on his chest, and even then, considering I never trust anything at full 100%, there is still a 0.1 chance that this is just an other lie we're witnessing. So yeah, I trust the plan, I just don't trust humans anymore. Q might be the last group of people I trust, and I know they are fighting a vile opponent that could somehow end up hurting the plan. The only reason why I pray at night is for Q and Trump to succeed.

Last time I went on facebook there was a Genie lamp picture, asking what people would request for a single wish, and all the comments (multiple thousands of them) were simply egocentric requests like if other humans didn't even matter. People are dying, being sold, raped, sacrified and tortured, meanwhile these pieces of shits only think about themselves.

The only thing that help me go by is that PAIN is coming, and I'm the one who've had pain inside for years now, I will feed on their pain and hopefully once everything is restaured to what seems to be the normal world, maybe then I'll start enjoying life. Until then I'll keep praying and will try to avoid any events/groupings of the brainwashed mass. Fucked up world fucked up a big loving teddy bear into a hurting sorry ass anon who has problem figuring out what the fuck he's doing here.

Thank you anons, appreciate all the good toughts.

>>3522936

I believe in God but his houses I cannot stand, I cannot go talk to a priest, I do not trust them at all. I have flashbacks from when I was a child with blurred memories from being inside the kitchen in my local church and I have no clue what happened, I know there are pedophiles and I know I built a wall around me, and I have no clue if I was abused or not and no way to know.I never even told anyone about this. I still find it comforting to talk to God though, I know he's there and he wishes he could answer back and I know he has a place for evil people.

I sure need love in my life, but one thing I know is that I'll never get anything near love anymore. Way too broken to even wanna try anymore. If only there was something I could do to make my trip on this rock worthwhile I would do it, but so far I'm just an observer looking at chaos everywhere and this where I am, in the unknown, in a place I barely recognize, surrounded by people who are not like me and don't understand me. I'm past the fact that I'll live a lonely life now, I just need a purpose here. I'm terrified at the idea that I'll just be an observer, unable to make a change.