Your thoughts are well justified. Antenna transmitters for aircraft satellite connections is capable of cooking a person where they stand. Think how they learned what overrode electrical impulses.
Don't be sad. I have years of putting pieces together, am awakened, and am learning controlled telepathy, so I understand what and partially see what you are trying to express, just a matter of connecting the rest. Also, I know very deeply the evil that exists, and rage is all I can express about and towards it.