So it seems I've run smack into the great wall of truth. The answer was, well, not easy, but if you take it logically, still the only answer, and now almost embarssingly self-evident.

I am ready in most respects for the next stage, at least when I sit in the Light of Day, but I still have fear and a couple questions about how and of the great unknown(s). As usual, I'm surprised by everything I've learned. The beauty, the magnitude, the struggle, the possibility of what I thought was impossible. Bigger than I imagined, and yet staring me in the face my whole life. No coincidences; simply put, none.

Would it have been easier if I'd become a Tibetan monk long ago? No, I needed to learn and see and experience all of this so I'd be prepared for the journey and thankful for it, too, no matter how many blunders, no matter how much heartbreak, and so thankful also for all the joys and victories. Every moment something I would need to rely on later.

I have some digging to do today, as I've been shown another fruitful path to pursue. We'll see where it takes me. Some names, dates, symbols and stories. More surprises, I bet. Just moving forward, ever forward.

So I want to thank you for helping me, Q, in my struggle to be free. Thank you God. Thank you Jim and Wolfy and all my friends out there. You know who you are, and I'm assured there's more of you than I realize. Bright lights, all of you.

I don't know how God, or Q for that matter, ever imagined I'd be strong enough to do all this, and yet here I am and here I go. Step by step. Trusting the Plan. Trusting God. Trusting love.

Finally, I pray to the beautifully loving God and Creator: give me the strength and courage I need when I'm not always a strong or courageous man. Give me the insight I need to see the path clearly. Continue to guide me towards the key and then the door behind which are so many answers. I will open it. But you already know that.

I love all of you, anons. I love.