I read what you wrote, I have also had a couple of near death experiences, once at age 13 and a couple in my early 20's. I have no recollection of what happened but was told I was very lucky to be alive. I do know that I get nudges, physical and emotional/spiritual all the time. I also receive very comforting messages from beyond the human mind, not words but communications of a sort. Always had that gut instinct when to get out of a bad space or avoid an evil person, my mother had it and my kids have it too. I hope you get to see it anon, just as myself. I know this is all real, the reality that we supposedly live in is definitely split into at the very least two or more timelines/realms…(THEIRS) and ours.
Godspeed…and peace to you. WWG1WGA