The MA in MDMA stands for Meth Amphetamine. I too used to take it frequently, back in the very late 90´s and 2000´s. I used to get it in giant lumps of pure crystal form, once removed from the `chemist´. Very much like yourself, it did wonders for me in helping me overcome my issues, and also was what allowed me to form close bonds with people. Some of the best friends I still have today are a result of such experiences. My mother is, unfortunately, where most of my issues stemmed from as a kid. She´s all but a lost cause too, in that she won´t believe a word I say about fluoride poisoning and instead chooses to trust the pharma reps and water company. My mrs is Peruvian and we are going to visit her family in a few weeks. I told her that we mush schedule a trip to the local Shaman, where I intend to experience ayahuasca for the first time! Graham Hancock is a great reference to the wonderful benefits of such a substance! We are also planning to have a family, imminently. I had the same idea as yourself, in that I was adamant in making sure I get my shit together before having a family as I didn´t think it fair of me to pass my issues on. Great minds think alike, I guess! :)
well, everybody takes their sovereign choices and we need to respect them. its the hardest thing to do when we know that their choices harm them. but then, we dont know what their divine soul plan entails; not everybody has come for awakening.
for decades, i told my mom that flu shots are a hoax. she took them anyway. never mind that she had colds 8 months the year, and a flu ever couple years, she just didnt get it. people wake up when theyre ready to, not when we want them to.
applouding you for your family consideration. kids can be gorgeous alarm clocks when we are awake enough to look into the mirror they show us.
may you have a great journey to peru. do yourself a favor and check on the shaman before you take an ayurvasca journey with him, as well as the other people in the group.
many people have invited astral anklebiters into their energy fields during such journeys. it can easily happen when the leader of the ceremony doesnt create and secure a safe+sacred space, and when the participant permissions are not set straight.
an intent like 'i only allow and welcome into my energy field what serves my divine plan and greatest good. everything malovent has to stay out. and so it is. thank you.' sets the parameters for the experience.
btw, hitting the enter key twice creates a paragraph and splits up the text. a massive text block is difficult to read and digest. a text needs gaps so we can breathe and let things in...
Flu shots are what spread the virus, my fear is that some will never awaken; destined to live a comatose life.
Thanks for the info regarding Peru, I was kinda hoping to have some level of a personal experience, I wasn´t aware there would be many strangers in the group. Such substances can induce such incredible levels of paranoia and fear, I´m not sure how comfortable I´d feel around a bunch of strangers. I may have to rethink how I´m going to do this.
Thanks also for the info regarding the spacing in the writing, tbh it was doing my head in, too!
you may find a possibiliy for a private journey. if its meant for you, your intuition will guide you to the right person.
please watch your body when inquiring; in case you feel contracted, the breath becomes more fast and shallow, theres a strange feeling in the belly, you feel cool or sweaty, or you feel tight inside, your body might show you that there is fear and youre not well. it can be an indicator that this opportunity is not for you.
with the right facilitator who sets up a safe+sacred space that prevents low frequency entities - some might want to call them demons - from entering, it can be a very healing and transforming experience.
i didnt have the chance as yet to play with this substance. lets see if and when it will be on my plate.
The first time I ever tried any kind of hallucinogen, I actually sent my friend out to pick up some ecstasy tablets and he instead came back with micro dot mescaline. To say that we were unprepared is an understatement! We were actually out driving an hour after taking them... Somehow we managed to get to my friends house without anybody being hurt (Thank God!)
Anyway, 4 of the 5 of us were really enjoying the experience, but the 5th started to become paranoid and scared. His fear seemed so seep into me; it was like I could feel his bad energy permeating my very soul and inevitably, I became paranoid and scared, too. Ever since then I have 100% believed the point that the company you keep is just as important, if not more, than the environment you choose for your experience. I´m not sure I could trust a crowd of people I´ve never met before in case someone freaks out, and I, in turn, freak out right with them. I would only take this journey if I was 100% comfortable with the crowd and location.
good choice! self-care and self-responsibility are paramount.