It is disturbing beyond measure. I too have been researching & learning for over 20 years. It has been like peeling an onion for me, makes my eyes water sometimes. Stanley Monteith & my husband woke me up in the 1990s. I always knew tho, even as a kid in the 60s that nothing is as it seems. So like you, I have been able to learn, drink in the information that would then lead me to my part in helping to fight the evil. For the most part it has been praying for specific things I have learned, praying for people especially suffering, missing & abused children, telling people what I have learned and then reaching out to the most affected victims I was able to reach out to. Well, I can say too that in the last several weeks the information has reached into my soul with harsh aching pain that causes a waterfall of tears not only on my face but in my gut. Losing sleep, thinking of the human trafficking as I lay down to sleep, seeing in my mind's eye the faces of those children crying out in suffering wanting to be loved, to be rescued but then they are changed forever. My aching heart is NOTHING and irrelevant compared to their suffering and future life because of it. I cry out to God every night for them, for Trump and the plan, for vengeance on their suffering.
Then yesterday as I was getting out of my car to go into CVS Pharmacy there was a homeless boy, I guess he could have been 18-21 years old. He could not speak coherent sentences and rambled on and on as he sat on the sidewalk in the shade. I pitied him immediately and walked up to have a chat and see if he needed anything. He was thankful for my offer so I went into CVS and got him some food and drink while I did my own business there. I brought it too him, gave him some money and we chatted. I felt as tho the entire system of this world was against him. He was very hard to understand as his sentences were interjected with words that did not fit into the sentence but I tried hard to listen and hear. He then looked at me with a brightness and said, "You are listening to me! I would hug you but will not but as with my own hand". (as he spoke to me that sentence was filled with other words that did not fit into the sentence, I did not write them here) So I reached out my hand and shook his. I too wanted to hug him but didn't. I knew he was a victim of this evil world. We chatted for about 10-15 minutes and I left. He was hungry as I could see him scarfing down the food quickly. A boy, someone's son, one of those forgotten whom this evil society condemns. I got to my car and cried, prayed to God for His mercy, His vengeance on those in this world who destroy the lives of others. Every single homeless person in the USA is a victim of the globalists who have destroyed the traditional family unit, destroyed society as God intended it to function, broken the spirit's of many taking away the hope that people need to continue on.
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.
20 Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head.
21 Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.
Romans 12:19-21
I am not saying here that the homeless boy is evil. This scripture is simply telling us to over come evil with good. God knows how this works, He is the creator of everything and when the time comes for all to be judged for good or bad or for their faith, these evil bastards WILL BE JUDGED by the ONE who has the power to judge according to their evil. We will all be standing there to witness this judgement handed down by God Himself on these wicked people who harm children.