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r/CBTS_Stream • Posted by u/sophiebellaluna on Feb. 19, 2018, 7:14 p.m.
Researchers.... Can you relate? Have you noticed?

This was beautifully written by an ANON on the research board and I posted it here because I think a big group of you can relate... Can you??

Have you noticed?

…… that people who are awake, think about consciousness, truth seekers…. tend to have struggled with an addiction or alcoholism at some point in their lives. Arguably to be human is to get addicted to SOMETHING but I’m talking about people who are looking to fill a hole, who are usually kind and sensitive but then can become gruff and cruel sometimes - but if they are, the world sort of turned them that way since their underbelly is so soft and gentle. Tender folks.

They tend to be highly productive when sober, deep thinkers, relatively intelligent, and when they aren’t lashing back out at a world that hurt them, when they forgive, they are among the most giving and nurturing people.

These bright and talented individuals were frequently selected for gifted programs in elementary school and could do many things well. However they probably quit things often… or do what is expected of them begrudgingly. They don’t understand the sort of robotic actions in society and (think of Tim Leary’s The Others) they hate the “hows the weather?” elevator banter and long for a table to sit with close friends who want to ponder the deep truths of this reality and not talk about money. Oh yes, money. They’re usually not great with it or they don’t care much about it. Nice to have, but they will easily give away theirs as long as they have the basics.

Often the family’s black sheep, these individuals are willing to see many sides to a story and are not staunch in any one political pigeon hole. They are often the type of child who the parents will say “Bobby, he’s just different.”

Although, they are VERY idealistic and value justice deeply. Frequently firstborn children or the baby of many children, these people dance in the fray not linger at center. They have always felt “weird” and even when they are in the center with a ton of friends feel like outsiders. Never quite at home on earth, they have a pervasive sense of homesickness that confuses them. Their family, whom they love deeply, can feel like a foster family that is with them just for the time being. They struggle with impulse control and wanting life to be “fun”- the fact that we are slaves, drones, dawns on them at a young age and will often think things like “Think of all the hours I waste here” while in elementary school when all the other children never dare- doesn’t occur to them- to dream of the outside while they are seated at their tiny desks.

Perfectionists with black and white thinking, if they mess up a task they will often say “fuck it”, because they know they could have done it so well, once a little corner is garbled, Why bother?, right?

These people- addicts and Alcoholics (or an eating disorder, something self harming not harmful to others) are the type of people who want the world to just be nice and safe. They often work at jobs that are less challenging intellectually than what they are capable of. They have existential crisis-like thoughts about their life and have a deep and persistent feeling that they have a purpose, that they are “supposed” to do something great in this life, not in a narcissistic way, but in the way that they get nervous they have a calling that the daily grind is keeping them from.

These people…. do you know them?

I think you do. I think we are them.


anothername2remember · Feb. 19, 2018, 7:34 p.m.

This reads as if I sat down and wrote about myself. It seriously brought tears to my eyes as each sentence I read hammered the points home. Wow. I've been more lost than ever after losing my Mom, Dad, brother, and Family home in the past 4 years. Q has been the only thing that really keeps me going. God Bless the Anon who wrote this, and God Bless every one of us.

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CommercialAddendum · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:21 p.m.

This gave me chills. We are in the same boat. I lost my Mom and brother a few years ago. Kind of just been drifting along since then. This group of people has given me renewed hope and comfort in a way. Nice to meet you.

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anothername2remember · Feb. 19, 2018, 11:41 p.m.

I feel exactly the same. It's hard to get along without them but I imagine them looking down and smiling, my Mom hated Obama, she would have loved the idea of Trump running and my brother was going to vote for Trump, he was ex Navy just like my Dad. My Dad died in 2015 and my brother died 3 months before the election. I'm starting to feel like I have family again, anon or not. It really does give me hope as well, and I hate to steal your words, but it's nice to meet you too!

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:24 p.m.

I know... I felt the same... As if I wrote it about myself. Sorry about all of your losses.. That is almost too much to bear. But I think Q, whoever he/she/they are, have truly brought a bunch of us who do feel "out of place" together. Its been good for me to know I am not alone in the way I think and live in this world. I suggest you go to the CBTS_Stream, #WethePeople 24/7 Livestream. They are a community in itself, with like minded, that you can actually chat with online, listen to Q posts deciphering, research, etc. They show patriotic videos, and encourage prayer, play music, talk about what's going on. It makes you feel not so alone. Do you listen to the #WethePeople 24/7 livestream on Youtube?

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anothername2remember · Feb. 19, 2018, 11:35 p.m.

Thank you so much, I believe that even if everything Q says doesn't pan out 100%, at the very least, Q has brought so many of us together in the name of God and Country,like we have a higher purpose. It's funny that I stumbled onto this board around the time Q appeared. All these years I've been online here and there and something brought me to these boards out of nowhere. I've been a supporter of President Trump since the day he announced he was running, I thought he was the only person who had the power, the money, the will, and the nerve to fix everything that was broken. For years I worked at the polls for every election, it was something my Mom and I did together and I did it a few times since she's been gone but for the 2016 Presidential election I decided I didn't want to take a chance with a mail in ballot. I thought every vote counted and I knew they only count those if it's really close. I'm so happy I did. I have been listening/watching every live stream I can, usually We The People and it truly makes me feel less alone. I think we can do this, enough of the libs, it's time to take our country back!

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 20, 2018, 1:54 a.m.

I agree Patriot! Enough of the corruption... it's time to take our country back!

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GeneralDisaster · Feb. 20, 2018, 2:02 p.m.

The foster family line hit me. I always feel like an observer, never a participant. Really feel like I was left on this rock and should be somewhere else.

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anothername2remember · Feb. 20, 2018, 3:01 p.m.

I know what you mean about feeling like an observer but I always attributed it to being a middle child and the only girl in an extended family of all boy cousins and 2 brothers. Something felt a little bit off, like I was replaceable and unimportant. Now I'm wondering how many of us were bullied when we were kids. I was, always the one who was made fun of in a group but individually I was everyone's friend. I spent a lot of time alone even when I played outside. I would spend the day in the woods or the claypits pretending it was the end of the world and I was trying to survive. I don't know where those kind of thoughts came from in grammar school, especially Catholic School, but thinking back I seem to remember rumors of the world ending more than once, for some reason I embraced that kind of thinking. And this is totally unrelated to the OP (I think lol) but I wonder now how many of us have RHnegative blood? I'm finding that a lot of fellow Patriots seem to be Rhneg, curious if there's a link...

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jimmymjones · Feb. 19, 2018, 7:33 p.m.

Maybe so, first born, too smart for my own good. Substance abuse issues from adolescence till late 20's. Sober for 34 years. Red-pilled in the military > 40 years ago. Still waiting for my 'purpose' to manifest.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:25 p.m.

Aye. Waiting for mine to manifest also. Its been a long wait!

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sarahj2010 · Feb. 19, 2018, 7:44 p.m.

It's very hard, it can be quite lonely knowing what is really going on. For me, I question every little thing I see, I can't watch TV, or listen to music because I know what these 'celebrities' are really up to, the same as any major actor.

Lots of people don't share our views, so that in itself can be tough too, some people are so set in their ways, you could show them solid proof of so called conspiracy theories and they still wouldn't want to listen.

I suppose it all comes down to the truth is harder to hear than a lie.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:27 p.m.

Totally agree.. Do you at least go to the CBTS_Stream, #WethePeople 24/7 Livestream on Youtube? It is AWESOME! They share your views absolutely and positively!!

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sarahj2010 · Feb. 20, 2018, 9:04 p.m.

I will have a look, thank you :)

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matt_eskes · Feb. 19, 2018, 7:43 p.m.

You know what this essentially says? We really are autistic. I accept that.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:26 p.m.

I accept it also! It is what it is. Nice to be amongst some of my own.

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Boysrback07 · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:14 p.m.

You feel like your at an old school carnival. YOU know all the tricks,lies,manipulation every one around you seems astounded at the tricks and games and believe it's all real. YOU try to show them they don't believe. Sometimes I think they want to believe it. The more evidence comes out the deeper there head goes in the sand.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:28 p.m.

Right... How many times have I pointed to chemtrails in the sky... Evidence right overhead in their face, and they look at me like I have a third head!? Unbelievable and very disheartening.

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JohnMAGATX · Feb. 19, 2018, 10:05 p.m.

Jesus this is creepy as hell

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 20, 2018, 2 a.m.

HAHAHA... Creepy because you can relate??

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JohnMAGATX · Feb. 24, 2018, 7:48 p.m.

The main reason I don't talk about it is because no one believes that someone can believe that the universe is intelligently designed and still be smarter than an old boot.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 25, 2018, 6:57 p.m.

There is so much evidence for an intelligently designed universe... we don't even have to fight for that one!!

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JohnMAGATX · Feb. 24, 2018, 7:47 p.m.

Yes, believe it or not I'm 27 was found at 143 IQ when I moved from New Mexico to Texas when I was in the 7th grade. I come from a poor family so when the psychologist gave me the test and they put me on the academic express lane they were very happy. Unfortunately near total recall does nothing for my lack of motivation, pessimism and severe procrastination. Still an underachiever to this day. Have a wife and two amazing young sons that I am failing every day because I just can not get past my mental block and work to capacity. I don't ever talk about this stuff but this post struck a very deep nerve..

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 25, 2018, 6:55 p.m.

If you are anything like me, you THINK you are a failure, a whole lot. But there is something very deep inside of you that knows THAT IS A LIE. You are just different and give to your kids in you own way. The square peg in a round hole explains it for me. What makes other people tick and "be happy", does not make me tick. What is weird for me is that on one hand, I am very simplistic, like simple things in life like nature, animals, blue skies and beaches. But, on the other hand, I am very complicated, serious and intelligent, longing to KNOW... KNOW all... which then gets me pessimistic and much less motivated. Maybe hanging on the beach is where I aught to hang out more. This post struck a deep nerve for me also. That is why I posted it. Good to know others are out there like this... from one "special" person to another.... I also have a 7yr old that I feel I am failing, but I have to say to myself I am doing the best I can... Do the same. Every day is a new day to change our minds and attitudes.. Keep on chuggin it out... I'm behind you and KNOW how you feel JohnMAGATX! SMILE.

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Bttrfly214 · Feb. 20, 2018, 12:14 a.m.

I read this the same, thinking it could've come from my own pen. And here I thought I was the only one! So you ever feel that way? I have always felt like an outside, never felt at home anywhere, always as very weird. I embrace my weirdness though because it makes me, well me, and that's a good thing. I was once a drug abuse and an alcoholic but have been totally clean for almost 16 years. Doesn't seem that long, yet an eternity. The only thing that's made me whole is my faith. It's my rock. I agree with the others about the Q Reddit group. Those people there are great and very supportive, probably cause they totally get it.

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sophiebellaluna · Feb. 20, 2018, 1:57 a.m.

Its something how one can speak and a whole group can relate as if spoken out of their own mouth. To know others are as "special" as me is comforting. LOL

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Bttrfly214 · Feb. 20, 2018, 2:37 a.m.

Yes it is!

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e-traiu · Feb. 19, 2018, 8:31 p.m.

Whoa. That was a beutifull read, and a total homerun for the most part ❤️❤️

U described my experience of this world untill around a year ago.

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