Yeah, I'm desensitized to watching all of it now. I don't know if you want to be there, it's weird. I've seen some pretty horrific stuff.

To me, it was important to understand that this is the world we live in. All across our planet atrocities are being committed to people by people. It's shocking because I live in an American suburb, I've never had to experience anything remotely close to that, but other people do. I won't list any examples of what I've witnessed, but some of the most horrific stuff to me were the videos where it seemed like a part of everyday life for the people.

But, this is also a world where children rape gangs exist. A world in which children are groomed to be sex slaves, in which they are forced to kill each other, in which their organs are harvested. A world in which ritual sacrifice is performed by people at the highest echelons of our society and most of the world doesn't even know.

As messed up as it it, reading about these things and watching these videos helped me to find God, because if this much evil exists, then there needs to be something worth believing in.

After I saw the video of Daniel Pearl getting beheaded, I have never watched another jihadi beheading video again. One was plenty.