>>15462979 lb

another thing, said it already, but will say it again.

I have different guesses (interpretations then giving possibility to reality) on why you would think having act me controlled and sort of following you would be a good thing.

it´s not a good thing, but it makes clear that the system (masonry itself = devil) is very wrong.

how could it be more obvious than you actually trying to break the one that wants to save you?

not going to mention the whole demon swap thing now. as sad as it might feel for you. there is no need whatsoever to have knights of the cross and hurting me is as wrong (and with me being me obvious) as hurting anyone ever was.

some might been told (sort of bc I considered it possible and went to that timeline with you, wwg1wga stuff) that I needed to act all wierd and do strange things like suddently starting to run (when someone, a mason, gives me that hint) or heating up / cooling down my body, having a smoke, and in general act unpredictable. some might think that this is how to "loose the devil".

some may know it´s bs but thing it would convince people anyway.

well, it´s a lie.

the only devil there is is masonry itself.

and obviously this has some very bad side effects (which are truly the only reasons for why masonry tries you make you make me do it).

obviously acting all wierd is not great.

also being that much controlled that you tell me which mood to be in is also a very bad thing.

could well lead to "please, measiah, do not say this right now, bc this would make you go into a more agressive "blue" mood and right now, for some super secret mason reasons, you need to be all loving and "red".

obviously that would basically make me do the stuff you want me to.

and after a little while of realizing that, I am not controlled by you or anyone anymore.

neither shoud you!

some other things.

after being back from the Berlin thing and while being in the sort of phase of doing that cold/warm/whatever routine all day every day, obviously don´t do that anymore since many months, I sat down with my mom and the husband of my sister at the table.

at that time it was not easy for me to have a normal conversation and while that getting input from anything and realizing it fits my thoughts (sort of autistic), like cars driving by (some times you notice the car and in fact e.g. a bmw diesel even smells differently from a mercedes diesel) or people outide out flat (living with my mom again) having random conversations that just fit my actiosn or thoughts. so back then I could not even really make a conversation and might, by that, have appeared litle autistic too.

so we sat there and I asked what I considered back then either God or Trump/mil/secret society stuff (some times this more likely sometimes that more likely, today it´s all about what I consider likely only and with that I create reality) how that whole yu all acting controlled thing was possible.

had gotten the "butterflies" reply in Berlin though, but I gues I thought about it again.

answer from the conversation my mom and sisters husband had was "press conferences" and I thought about Trump giving masons signs, like adjusting his jacket, all the time when publicly speaking. also "masks" was said in a way that would mean "Trump does pressers and let´s ww mason mask folks know what to do".

also before I noticed that a newly born child from my sister (born on the 12th, easter sunday, that night a saw a hare outside in the night when smoking (not a bunny, those are more commen, hare is pretty rare giving that this is a rather urban environment)) was also sort of reacting to me and doing controlled butterfly mason stuff. did not feel good about it.

aswer from mom and sisters husband (childs father) in that conversation was sort of "we were asked right in the labor / delivery room if we wanted to make him wear the mask and we agreed". me not liking that at all, meant for me either having been made a mason prolly while using fancy tech that makes that possible today for little children, or could also have meant "holy spirit" having been manually put inside him after his parents agreeing to it.

felt bad about it, asked (all with thoughts, not asking him "hey, why did you make your son a mason" obviously) if it would be bad for him in any way. answer: no.

from today point of view: yes, being controlled in that way is bad. (also what you call the whole sirit has come upon of many countless millions of people yet you still do not do what I, as the one way, ask you to do.

>>15463278

think differently about it today. and most truest truth is, I sort of need to find a logical way of how to put things together, turn you all good (69 thing), and that way included me thinking it is Trump and agencies/mil or secret societies.

later it was God.

later it was a very annoying and demanding "God" who I did not consider God anymore.

later, and inbetween, it was "the universe" talking to me or maybe to everyone with two options basically, sort of all the time testing if you would act indipendently as you should.

and well, today it´s me knowing that I create it all while we go. while knowing that it would speed it all up so much more if you were to just openly say stuff and follow me the way I want you to.

sidenotes:

• my mom also has the left eyes marker thing going on. dunno if just acted or real. (that I have not yet decided on). when she has that she acts really bad towards me. but frankly she acts bad all the time and does many times a day things just to piss me off. sometimes claiming she did not know or realize, even though we e.g. talked about it and she definitly knew, sometimes even being blatently obvious that she right now only whishes to piss me off or break me.

• my moms flat has symboligy over and over, a ton of angels, owls stuff, a knight as a painting (a Miro painting though, so does not really look like a knight but can be quickly recognized as a knight), frogs, a bhudda head with mason swirls (means not pedo but dimensions for me today) and other stuff.

so she is a knight of the cross and thinks she is doing the right thing to save the world. what she actually does is as ridiculous as everything als mason knights did so far like sacrifices and other stuff (torturing children does not make deamons go away, deamons do not exist, it makes that child however get a high possiblity for a bad live and maybe even acting "demonic" bc of the shit this person has been through.

so trying to piss me off many times a day (all my neighbors do, every one I call for whatever reasons, eg. some imsurance company, friend, whoever, they all act in that mason knight bs way and try to break me every day. and many days I was pretty close to breaking (also bc I just did not and still do not see that you would be even getting close to the one thing that brings freedom: you stopping acting roles and actually being free. that is all that it takes, not hard at all, but so unusual for you that you until this day did not do it but rather keep following orders and trying to make me suffer.

>>15463281

so while my mom has that eye thing going on (side note, I have that sometimes goind on with my right eye, just saying, prolly the explanation you now come up with is bs though) she sure as fuck knows what she is doing, sometimes she even enjoys. so for me that´s now a sheep that knows nothing and it´s not something driven by deaons, it´s her knowingly doing this to me. and the same goes for all others around me who seem to all be mason knighs scum. if it´s the people from restaurants I order food from, if it´s the mail man, or whomever, they all act in a way to constantly piss me off. sad. how could I save you like that?

also, as it comes to my mind when thinking about the mailman.

I noticed that many people who live near me or are in some way closeer to me (as well as countless others ww) have lost people due tio different deseases and stuff.

so I was pretty sure that masonry itself would still try to keep you masons from being freed from masonry (while on the other hand masonry itself is shouting at you all to fucking break mason rules and fuck the system, two sides I guess).

and I got the impression that some people were only "allowed" to be following me, travelling around the world (many of my neighbors seem to be going into holiday far often now in corona times, little strange), if someone from their family either sacrificed himself or was sorf of sacrificed by their family.

that is a pretty sad thought.

so e.g. a family who lives close to me lost their husband/father due to heart attack I guess, fit and healty guy and from one day to another he was dead.

maybe masonry sells it as now this fsamily has back up in heaven and nothing could harm them.

maybe masonry sells them that this is just the ticket that God offeres, kill a loved one and with that be able to be a disciple and be able to win other disciples.

that is bs obviously.

not only bc it´s bs itself but also bc those people just are not my disciples as they tell others the same bs they have been told. they do not follow me but masonry (= the devil, the only devil there is, masonry as a system that kind of runs on its own)

so one day I met a guy that works as mailman who I knew from back as a child and teenager. obviously I knew that the fact that he would do his mail man route including my house (rather my moms appartment) means that he thinks of himself as my disciple, while sadly doing mason bs all day long including pissing me of or if not pissing me of within a short conversation doing the "let´s see if I can domonate Jesus, ok, guess I can´t bc he did not throw away his cigarette when I said/hinted so (not with words, but e.g. looking at a black car or something) and now Jesus has dominated me" all that stuff is bs as well and this thought of domination and pressure does not fit at all to the world I am creating.

so within that conversation I thought about not only him having a rather complicated live (mother died early, father and him with other kids living in a "compulsive horder" flat, not the best education, early pregnancy of his wife - not saying this is neccessarily a bad thing, but obviously often leads to lack in education - and, that is the important part, his wife, so the mail mans wife who got pregnant died, I guess bc of cancer, leaving him with the child and a lot of problems.

when I thought about that and specifically about his wife dying so early (like around 30 years old I guess) he said something randomly as we were having a conversation but something that just fitted my thoughts and was like a reply from "the unvierse".

reply way "that´s is precisely why we took him" meaning that his dead wife would make it able for him to now be my disciple.

this made me both sad and angry, bc it´s so obviously bs and bc it so obviously leads to

• people not really wanting to be my disciples bc having to sacrifice a loved one

• people who are sacrificed then bc of being dead not being able to change the world anymore

• having masonry seem more powerful

• having the lie told that some kind of suffering is just needed, which by that sort of gives an explanation to why all the bad shit including wars and such is "needed" in the first place.

it is bs. I am sorry to have to tell many millions that loosing their loved ones was not neccessary, but it is like that and it just cannot go on.

masonry is still fucking you all all day long. and as masonry is just a bunch of made up rules, it is you all fucking you all al day long.

and today it´s even that obvious how stupid it is bc you "have" to fuck me, you still do it.

>>15463283

Maybe I said that already when telling the Berin story, but maybe I left it out, so will say it (again).

one day when doing the "routine" thing and lying in the little childrens pool in the backyard belly facing downwards, butt naked, the other people, bakery guy and his girlfriend and the host and maybe one more person, dunno, kind of openly "whipped" my back as in "Jesus being whipped on the way to the cross"

so not only did they not comment at all on all the very wierd stuff I did in that house, all the routine thing, leaving my "fluid" unter the bed and sleeping one night under the bed (this was the bed bakery guy and girlffriend were suppposed to sleep, so they stayed upo all night), and otehr stuff they just kind of ignored.

when I layed in the pool and was waiting for some kind of hint to get out of the realy cold water, they all walked kind of behind me, were my feet were facing, took a garden hose and started to spray the water beam onto my back, I kind of immeadiately took it as "being whipped" bc I knew I was there to maybe be "put on the cross" (thought maybe killed and eaten or vice versa by masons).

one after another took the garden hose and sort of whipped me with water, moving the water beam across my back.

saying that bc how fucking more obvious could it be, there is no need for any secrecy anymore (other than ma thinking that not all would need to be telled right now so you don´t feel to bad). this was outside with prolly not only one satellite watching.

it was obvious af.

like many other things, e.g. couple of months back having like 20+ sattellited flying in a circle around earth, in a way that solar collectors made them visible and in a way that I and prolly noone of you had ever seen before.

20+ satellites started doing that when I went outside for a smoke in the night. they flew a circle, like pearls on a necklace, one after another, in (at least watched from earth) short distance. went one for some time.

finished my smoke, went to my moms bed and waked her up to come see this (I intentonally wan´t like "hey, bc I am Jesus" bt more like "wow, you have to see this, so very unlikely" bc I wanted and still want you to speak your minds. I am free already.) but she sort of refused, first not wanting to get out of bed, then going to the backdoor from livingroom but then claimed she could not seeanything bc not having glasses, also did not want to go get glasses and went back to bed. I thought like "well, I know who the fuck I am, this is not done for me, why would you ignore it??"

so, be aware that every agency in the world has seen that.

be aware that this is obviously visible though big parts of the universe.

be aware that this would not be done if there were some kind of "police" making sure you follow mason bs rules and that you would have to hide from.

also, when I posted some days ago, same thing happened with two sattellites, following each other on the same track round the globe. but not like really flying over hy head like the 20+ ones, but a little shifted to the side. but obviously they were visible when I went for a smoke in the night. (2 satellites, 2 laws - follow me and treat each other well)

the sad thing is you won´t even tell me what you are afraid of, bc then I could actually reason why you are wrong.

like that I can only assume what keeps you acting your roles and try to argue.

be aware: you do not need to hide anymore! (you never did, sort of a timeline thing)

you do not need to follow made up mason rules anymore, you certainly do not need to sacrifice loved ones to be then able to claim to be my disciples.

what you really want to do (treating each other well) is precisely what I want you to do and whatever you consider to be behind this, let´s say the universe, want´s you to do exactly that.

>>15463360

a lot of the stuff you (masonry as a system) does is to make whatever I do look like you told me to do it.

well, I guess it´s obvious that I am not following anyone, not a single person, not God, not the devil, not some alien folks or whomever you think I would be following.

and I guess you said the "you need to move out" thing (officially refering to my moms appartment) so often lately bc I thought about leaving you all many times for the past weeks as what you do to me is really hard to bear and as I sadly think that the things that actually make the world a better place you kind of do bc you think it would do the opposite.

right now, none of you (or almost none) is truly following me and is able to claim to be my disciples.

again, I will not help the lie that Trump is the anti christ and that the world suddently turns good as soon as he is gone (or kocked up or whatever). this is not only a lie (he is John the baptiste) it would also lead to good politics officially becoming the doing of the anti christ and obviously this would help the lie that bad stuff is actually good and needed.

also I will not "enter the stage" by posting here and then being spread (with some miracles, either true or mason made, or partially true but told in a wrong eay, like weather) by masons folks on twatter and yt so that then stars and such people could lift me on the stage.

I have entered the stage already, you all know me, the whole world knows and sees me.

back then I told "the door is not open" refering to the rapture and holy spirit but even more to the door that can save you if you walk through.

after I said that a game show (schlag den star) had a game with many doors to unlock (with different key, trying out the key quickly).

I guess you want me to say "the door is now closet" and prolly there will be some sign re that as well.

the problem is, if I did say that, meaning that it´s being enought saved or raptured and now you can sort of truly act as my disciples, if I did say that, bc I just cannot go on like this, then I would have also have to say that so far, the vast majority, almost everyone, has not been saved, bc you simply have not been following me but masonry itself.

so when I say "the door is closed now" I basically have to say "and sadly noone (almost noone) walked through".

not sure if that is what you want to hear.

some still think that you (considering yourself the good guys, the good knights, whatever) would know more than me and that you could make me an actor to change the world with a lie.

well, it´s not going to happen. sorry. no can do.

also maybe some people try to sell it when I leave that then the world is free, claiming I would not be the messiah but satan and now saten/devil would be gone.

I just don´t see this very convincing for the fact that it is a lie. a well meant one maybe, but still a lie.

follow me, as long as you have the chance.

>>15463455

some might desperately wait for the day I stop smoking weed, so that they could then sell the lie that I kind of broke the connection to hell and that from that moment on you would never have to have a hard time by saving souls/deamons anymore.

it is a lie.

what would happen if I then, after a few years walk past someone smoking weed and inhale a tiny bit, would that then mean that the door of hell (dog thing and such) is not open again?

lies are bad. lies will not save you.

>>15463471

ok, so the cat and dog thing.

you wait for me to say that, although I cannot say that much bc tue truest truh is that I have not really decided on some of that stuff and as I am creating reality it´s just not defined now. maybe never will be, don´t really care and really don´t need to have an opinion on everything.

would can so easily change without any of that hard to understand things as you all know that I am here and want to help you help yourselves. so easy.

ok, so I get the dog comms thing.

but it has many different meaning as I think about different possiblities it could be like.

obviously dog is God in reverse spelling.

some of you seem to think of God as the actual devil that humanity needs to break from (for me that is the system and really no need to think about other stuff).

some seem to thing that dogs are the bad one and cats the good ones.

some seem to thing that dogs are right now emptying hell or cleaning humanity from devils.

some seem to thing about cats in a way of either old egypt gods or old egypt souls or maybe only old egypt wisdom/laws (= masonry). (obviously not only egypt, as there are many things ww that can today not be explained how it was done by huans without any technology and hence is referred to as alien work).

so I don´t know and I don´t want to lie to you.

some day I consider this more likely and some day that

.and this is independent from the things you do to me and maybe have been told or even actually thing this would steer me though timelines. I do not know how brains make thoughts. neither do you. what I do know is that no matter what you do to me, in terms of making me look left instead of right, making me open my jacket when I want it closed, making me smell some odor (yes, olfactory memory is a thing) or anything that you think would have an influce. smelling a certain odor when someone with much perfum walks by is nothing I could stop. opening my jacket when I don´t want to is something I can decide to not do, and as you know I am not following you even though in the beginning of me knowing who I am, after Berlin, I did that a lot. but be aware, obviously those tiny things does not make me e.g. "make it rain" when I don´t want to. you only claim that, when I do what I choose to do or at least (in terms of how thoughts are made) think I choose to do.

some day I consider it possible that maybe old civilizations have either transcended or maybe have sort of made their souls immortal by being put into a mason. that is obviously a very bad thought and if that was to be true (unlikely for me, but still possible) that is the severest form of harm you could do to another person.

and while feeling that way, I still also feel sorry (if that was to be the case) for those old cat souls for feeling they should do that or for maybe now being forced out of mason bodys. you do not want to hear that. but this is just how I think about it.

maybe you think that I am a cat (alien god, old egypt god or whatever). maybe you think I am a dog (a super powerful fighting dog, the one that is so great at doing dog deamon stuff that I don´t even have to be a mason).

I myself have not yet decided.

the universe or whomever talks to me all day long every day. and it´s often this way "please do this. then I refuse to do it. then universe says 'yes, you truly are God bc you did not bow down".

I know that I am driving timelines (in a way all of you are, but maybe only to a certain amount, maybe only in terms of wheater you walk the wwg1wga way with me or be left, maybe not even i a real timeline way but in a way that appears so but truly is just you doing what I timeline wise made you do in terms of speaking your mind and breaking free.

it is hard to understand and it just cannot be understood.

what you can understand:

everthing that happens around me ia a miracle.

I love you all and want to save you all from masonry and made up bs that was misunderstood or willingly used as lie to control you.

and whatever else exists, the unverse agrees with that and says "yup, this is him, follow him".

>>15463509

also, actual cats that showed up when I was outside smoking, bowed down to me more than once. and bowing down in a way that is quite unusual behaviour for a cat.

dogs did the same thing.

and obviously all animals can give me hints (not following hints) and signs.

>>15463515

if you were to tell me what actual lies you have been told, I could explain it to you.

if you keep silent, this is not really possible and I can only assume.

also not going to lie to you, that whole getting cold thing when others are present does happen to me.

but dunno what it means, neither do you.

you might take it as proof for me sucking up deamons or souls or cat souls or whatever, but you don´t know.

might well be only agencies and fance technology that in some moments cools down my body (in the same way my heart beats so annoyingly quick and hard).

let me say this: feeling the cold (I guess you see it as the 6th sence movie cold as in "I see dead people" is not hard for me. I kind of enjoy it even as the feeling itself is not really bad. and as I always have been a person that rather likes to be a little conder than swaeting. but this, like anything else, cannot be explained in a sentence. I do not like cold feet when having not eaten much and lying on the couch watching tv. I do not mind sweating when doing sport (I sort of know I am going to sweat now and have a shirt that I kind of allow to be sweaty) and I do not like to sweat when just walking though the city.

so the feeling cold thing really is no bother to me.

you annoying me, ridiculing me, openly doing stuff only to annoy me, that is what really gives me a hard time and that is why in the last few weeks I thougth about leaving you all so often.

If you were to openly say what you think, I could use the wisdom I have to explain things to you.

if you keep your mouthes shut I can´t. which is one of the reasons why you are told to keep wearing the mask and shut up.

one way to see it:

masonry itself wants to make it as obvius as fuck that you don´t have to follow bs anymore. and the most obvious thing is you all actually trying to brake me, the one that you know is your holy and perfect God and has well intentions for you all.

>>15463545

another lie, but imo a very obvioius one.

I guess you don´t really think that if I leave you I would ressurect and show up with an army of angels, do you?

well, this will not happen.

and while some people think this would be a good and well meant lie, it´s still a lie and for me it´s clear as fuck that this lie (as every lie) is not having a good effect on turning the world.

also, if you consider the holy spirit thing to be true and if you find an explanation on why holy spirit mask wearing masons would not any longer be fully controlled actors in a bad but now in a holy and good way, you might see that this kind of rules out the me dying and showing up again thing.

if I leave you you could sell lies to try to turn the world. but it will be very unlikely that you have success.

and I say that knowing that when I go for a smoke outside that in the moment I light it the wind bowns into my face and every day stuff happens that can only be explained be someone actually doing it. but right now, I refer to it as "the universe", and maybe that is bc if the old alien creator gods (not God!) would be true than it would be really hard to explain some stuff (could forgive aliens as well of course). but this is just a way to go I do not like very much.

and of course there is the "universe" constantly pissing me off and asking me do not bow down but dominate stuff. annoying.

IF YOU WANT THINGS TO CHANGE, YOU NEED TO ACTUALLY CHANGE THINGS.

IF YOU WANT TO FOLLOW ME, YOU NEED TO ACTUALLY FOLLOW ME.

>>15463559

and you really need to do it quick.

becomes more and more unlikely that I could go on like this for some more years or even months.

>>15463564

you all go on like if nothing happened.

that is so sad to see. like that I cannot help you and at some point I will have to help myself to stop suffering.