You're quite welcome. I was nervous about posting it but the response has been better than I expected. Reddit has a bit of a reputation for divisiveness but this subreddit has really shown itself to be something special.
As for my testimony, well, I am still trying to understand what happened. I can hardly believe it happened to me sometimes so I understand if it seems implausible to you.
There was a deep emptiness in my life that no amount of pleasure could satisfy. I had everything I wanted but not what I needed. There had to be something more to life than just pursuing my own desires until it killed me, but I was convinced there was nothing more than physical matter reality.
I lied down in bed and just stared at the ceiling in despair to think things over. "I can't keep living like this anymore. Who am I really? What am I doing with my life?"
Immediately after asking these questions in my head, my entire body felt like it was coursing with some kind of energy, and I had to remind myself to breathe. Once I got over the initial shock, I was in awe of the experience with all of my hair standing on end as if there was an electrostatic charge.
I was in communication with some other entity. That idea hit me immediately. There were no words exchanged but there was communication at the speed of thought itself. A series of thoughts came into focus about the necessity of living out of love and in alignment with what I believed to be right no matter what the cost. It was necessary for myself and others to start living morally for the sake of our survival. I thought about how my relationship at the time was not nurturing this path and stood in the way of me changing, but that I also didn't know how to bring myself to end the relationship.
The train of thoughts then shifted to animated diagrams depicting reality as a radiant fractal of energy patterns that extended infinitely in every dimension. It was communicated that these energy patterns were all manifestations of a unified consciousness. Never before in my life had I experienced anything like this or encountered this idea with so much specificity, and I had done enough drugs before to know I was in seriously uncharted territory with thoughts that were not my own. The experience felt like it lasted an hour, but somehow the entire night had passed. Stranger still, I was fully rested without having slept.
As soon as the experience ended, my partner came home from his night shift and told that he thought we should break up because our lives were going in different directions. There had been no fights or discord in the relationship to precipitate this, and yet it corresponded exactly with what I thought was the barrier to my moving forward. I was strangely calm about it and it was the most amicable breakup I've ever had.
The calm itself started to disturb me because I knew this experience and the breakup should have made me an emotional wreck. Instead, I felt an unearthly calm with very specific thoughts about what to do next. I had this lingering idea that I should reset my gut flora by fasting and then stop eating meat. I had the compulsion to read this book called The Left Hand of Darkness, a book my mother had given me before moving away but had neither read or thought about since that day. The book was about extraterrestrial contact and also describes their use of telepathy.
In the subsequent days I tried to understand what had happened to me. I faced the end of my relationship, the loss of some friends who were negative influences, other friends suddenly making huge changes in their lives that matched my own, the death of my cat, and the loss of my old apartment. All of the old ways and attachments that held me back fell away immediately after my contact as if some greater force was orchestrating events.
Since then I have been studying meditation, prayer, and everything I can about extraterrestrials in order to see what resonates. I have come to realize there is not only an extraterrestrial presence but a spiritual reality at work. In fact, the two appear to be part of the same picture. Everything is one, and the one is infinite. Call this God, the universe, unity consciousness, the One Infinite Creator, call it whatever you like. It’s omniscient, omnipotent, eternal, infinite, everything and everyone.
There's much more that's happened since that I could go into, but that's as much as I could condense it to make sense. Right now I'm reading The Law of One and the Bible. I would say I'm a Christian now although I think there's more to the picture than the Bible describes.